how will I know

How will I know what to do

For I never had tea parties like you

How will I know what to say

I never saw it done this way

How will I know how to raise a girl

My mom disappeared

I was only four

How will I know what a little girl needs?

When we go to the hospital to have her, what will I pack?

Only 22 weeks left to ck out every book on girls to read.

I'm already worried about makeup,hair, nails, & jewlry 15 yrs from now

you see it wasn't very long ago I was the one teased for not knowing how to do all that....

My Grandparents filled a huge void that was left bare

They sacrificed their extientence just out of love to make sure I always had a chance

They were filled with His Spirit, for all they took care of with out seeking themselves, is special, in fact rare

My Nanny grabed one hand, and my Paps the other, then sought the Word on life for the dance

Once that leads to a different tune, it's the power, focused not on themselves, they taught me to care.

My Nanny always knew there would be a day
When I could have confidence with my little girl

She was my constant, never leaving me astray

When finding out I was to be a momma the 2nd time around

Instead of pure excitement and joy, I felt the fear set in

I needed someone to save me, I was lost and wanted to be found

I didn't know how to be Mom to a daughter, is what the enemy kept whispering in my ear

I asked my Savior to step in, he then grabbed my hand and took away my fear

He spoke softly,my child You don't have to be taught how to play dress up, barbies, tea parites and such

It is something that comes from within, a gift I fill and guide u step by step,follow me in all your ways, I knew you in your mother's womb and I wanted you here so much

You were not all alone while setting up your dolls

I was right there beside you

I even held you tighter when I knew she wasn't going to call

Be still child of mine and sit before my throne

You found me early on, and would smile as I would come near

We played house, laughed, read, and sang together,sometimes my voice is all you would need to hear

I took you under my wings and  gave you peace and let you shine

You didn't need much, just a little comfort and some of my time

Now do the same for your daughter, take her and hold her close

Teach her the things that you know to be true

Not to be proud, rude, selfish, bitter, or boast

I picked you to be her Mother

She needs you in the ways you always wanted yours to be

Teach her to love me by your example

For as you know this is what matters the most.

Show her mercy and grace,it is what matters,matters the most to me.

God thank you for speaking life back into my soul

Now my little girl is three and my other princess is one

Looking back at my daughter still in the womb, this all seems so hard to be a hole

What was I afraid of, you were holding me until the pain of  sorrow was done

The fear is now sweet love, the guilt and shame, you still take them all away

You always say it best, peace love and joy are there

You have consumed me, giver of life in my heart, Lord use me, I lay down my life for you today.