what i would do

what i would do for just one more hug
one more kiss
her voice, her thoughts, her smile
what i would do to feel her love

why did she have to leave me
why did she have to go
i just want her back
this is all i know

I've lost my best friend
I've lost the one who knew me best
my guardian, grandmother, protector,
the one that made sure I always had the best

the best that she could do
the best that she could give
i always wanted to give back
she just left before that day came

she never asked for anything
all she did was give
to all with whom she loved
the list is too long to share

why did she have to leave me
i just want her back
she would never have to lift a finger
i would do anything to see her smile
along with so many others
she was a great American hero
just living in her house
she worked for God's kingdom, always thought of his House

her life motto was to share her heart to see another smile
her thoughts to see another secure
her pockets to see another safe
her laughter to see another ones face
her hand to see another well
why can't i ask her how she did it all
is this why she had to go
was God ready to give her a break
one much needed and deserved

why couldn't we get a warning
why couldn't we have a sign
were they all there and we were just too busy to notice
or did we choose not want to see what was there
she never slept, just made sure everyone else did
did she know how much I cared

the best of moms
the best of care
i never had to worry
she was always there
why did she have to leave me
i just want her back
i would do anything, please Nanny just come back

happy birthday Nanny, is all i want to say
happy Birthday Nanny, u deserved the kind of party I know you got today
Jesus sang to you today, just wish I could have too,
Jesus is what keeps me fighting for good
he is my only hope
you taught me he is the answer
Because of you i wait for him to calm the storm
when will this nagging pain subside
is this what will always be until the day we embrace again
a child which i was still yours was never going to be ready to say goodbye
you were the one that took care of my every need
never wanted or even expected in return
we always joked that i would have to spend the next twenty years trying
why didn't u give me that turn
i know you would have died inside to know what was near
did you smell it
could you feel it
did you see it
could you sense that your death was near
you weren't afraid and prayed the entire way to the light
you even told others what you saw
witnessing as you went out
only you, that was your style, always thinking of all but yourself
you only wanted your children, grands, and greats to be okay
you gave us all what you had
your life lessons, your journey, your faith, your very being to the depths of your soul
its all still here Nanny, not to worry now,
just rest knowing we are fighting hard
for what you would have wanted us to be
we are now your legacy
and won't be letting you down
we know you will be full of questions
when we meet again
i can hear you now as you ask me...
"how did we discipline our kids?, why did we choose this house?, how did you stop caring?, what did you give away?, why did you choose this over that?, how did you learn to fix that?, did you finally learn to iron just the way I did?, how did you decide to send your child there?, why did you choose this friend?, why did you want this item?, is it for the right reasons?, or is it for the things of this world?,
always remember these aren't the things that make you happy
just listen to your maker, he is the one
the only one that truly matters, it is why you and I are here, he just wants you to know him, never forget he is near
all that matters is letting him in, cofide, confess, talk to him, then you will be on his list,
this is all that matters, nothing else compares, i know you want me back, but I'm better in fact happier than i've ever been, no more pressure or heartache now, so stop worrying about what you would do to have me back, I'm happy as a peach sweet girl, you will have me back, just now it's your turn to take all the steps, if you choose the light and don't let life get in the way, just choose the life my sweet one and we will be together again, only next time it won't be for just a brief moment in time, but forever and ever, no one can take it away, it's God's promise, the answer, the fate of all believers, the happiest we've ever been. close your eyes and rest now, for know i'm near all that separates us is a little bit of time, but we both have the eternal gift.

i will see you again nanny
don't you worry now
sleep and rest til i get there
because when i see you again
i know how you are and you won't want to rest
you will talk with me for hours
sharing every detail of all your days
you will fill my heart with your wisdom over and over again
until then I'm going to make it, all because I know you are with Jesus and better than okay.