what makes a treasure

true friends are a treasure
and what makes a treasure a treasure?
value, significance ,uniqueness, & beauty
treasure in small ways by the value of having a friend that loves me for me

comfort given that brings significance deep within,

uniqueness because a treasure can't be replaced

a treasure is not easily found, sometimes we think we have found the treasure of our dreams only to find out that its stones are fake indeed.

they crack in the storms, tarnish & fade over time

for a treasure isn't a treasure if you are the only one investing just to see it shine

a treasure always shines regardless of admiration and love without ever saying a word

no need to be reminded when a treasure is found for actions are always louder than words
Remember the enemy will try to steal your treasures away
However a true treasure doesn't rock nor sway, it stands the test of time
Even the treasure hunters that step on and in the way
Trying to weave a web of self distruction because they long to see the light and shine go out

Those that build life on the rock, will have the best treasures of all

Some look a lifetime for a treasure and let God's hand play a role
They choose to store their treasure on the one stone that can save all
Or those that start with good intentions but only to let it fall into a huge hole
A hole that was only meant for Jesus, all you have to do is reach out and call

upon the treasure that never leaves, is always there no matter how much it puts on the heart, this treasure can't stop growing and giving, and insist on giving comfort to those that take the time to know
what loving others is all about

When you don't love your treasures and don't spend the time with what matters most,
lt all gets lost to the core of the treasure and can only fall, meaning of life is altered
forever changed, always yearing for something more
if all one did was take our treasures to the father
and just wait for him, he will open the door.

O,how a treasure can make one see the world in the way its meant to be seen.

Uplifting, joyfull, full of wonder, and peace

that's why a treasure is what you are

For a treasure is what you will always be.

what i would do

what i would do for just one more hug
one more kiss
her voice, her thoughts, her smile
what i would do to feel her love

why did she have to leave me
why did she have to go
i just want her back
this is all i know

I've lost my best friend
I've lost the one who knew me best
my guardian, grandmother, protector,
the one that made sure I always had the best

the best that she could do
the best that she could give
i always wanted to give back
she just left before that day came

she never asked for anything
all she did was give
to all with whom she loved
the list is too long to share

why did she have to leave me
i just want her back
she would never have to lift a finger
i would do anything to see her smile
along with so many others
she was a great American hero
just living in her house
she worked for God's kingdom, always thought of his House

her life motto was to share her heart to see another smile
her thoughts to see another secure
her pockets to see another safe
her laughter to see another ones face
her hand to see another well
why can't i ask her how she did it all
is this why she had to go
was God ready to give her a break
one much needed and deserved

why couldn't we get a warning
why couldn't we have a sign
were they all there and we were just too busy to notice
or did we choose not want to see what was there
she never slept, just made sure everyone else did
did she know how much I cared

the best of moms
the best of care
i never had to worry
she was always there
why did she have to leave me
i just want her back
i would do anything, please Nanny just come back

happy birthday Nanny, is all i want to say
happy Birthday Nanny, u deserved the kind of party I know you got today
Jesus sang to you today, just wish I could have too,
Jesus is what keeps me fighting for good
he is my only hope
you taught me he is the answer
Because of you i wait for him to calm the storm
when will this nagging pain subside
is this what will always be until the day we embrace again
a child which i was still yours was never going to be ready to say goodbye
you were the one that took care of my every need
never wanted or even expected in return
we always joked that i would have to spend the next twenty years trying
why didn't u give me that turn
i know you would have died inside to know what was near
did you smell it
could you feel it
did you see it
could you sense that your death was near
you weren't afraid and prayed the entire way to the light
you even told others what you saw
witnessing as you went out
only you, that was your style, always thinking of all but yourself
you only wanted your children, grands, and greats to be okay
you gave us all what you had
your life lessons, your journey, your faith, your very being to the depths of your soul
its all still here Nanny, not to worry now,
just rest knowing we are fighting hard
for what you would have wanted us to be
we are now your legacy
and won't be letting you down
we know you will be full of questions
when we meet again
i can hear you now as you ask me...
"how did we discipline our kids?, why did we choose this house?, how did you stop caring?, what did you give away?, why did you choose this over that?, how did you learn to fix that?, did you finally learn to iron just the way I did?, how did you decide to send your child there?, why did you choose this friend?, why did you want this item?, is it for the right reasons?, or is it for the things of this world?,
always remember these aren't the things that make you happy
just listen to your maker, he is the one
the only one that truly matters, it is why you and I are here, he just wants you to know him, never forget he is near
all that matters is letting him in, cofide, confess, talk to him, then you will be on his list,
this is all that matters, nothing else compares, i know you want me back, but I'm better in fact happier than i've ever been, no more pressure or heartache now, so stop worrying about what you would do to have me back, I'm happy as a peach sweet girl, you will have me back, just now it's your turn to take all the steps, if you choose the light and don't let life get in the way, just choose the life my sweet one and we will be together again, only next time it won't be for just a brief moment in time, but forever and ever, no one can take it away, it's God's promise, the answer, the fate of all believers, the happiest we've ever been. close your eyes and rest now, for know i'm near all that separates us is a little bit of time, but we both have the eternal gift.

i will see you again nanny
don't you worry now
sleep and rest til i get there
because when i see you again
i know how you are and you won't want to rest
you will talk with me for hours
sharing every detail of all your days
you will fill my heart with your wisdom over and over again
until then I'm going to make it, all because I know you are with Jesus and better than okay.

NOT HERE NOT NOW

As the rain comes down so does my tearsI was not ready for all of this, not now, not hereI miss her so much and just want her near
Her smell, her hands, the sound of her voiceNothing inside me is the same She wasn’t ready, it wasn’t her choice
It still hurts so bad day in and day outHard to believe a year has come and gone I want to run, hide, scream, and shout
First shock, deep sadness, darkness, anger, and now thisDeep down I know she didn’t have to suffer but come on.Not even a goodbye, a smile, or small kiss

So many questions yet still to askShe was the one that got me, always had my back.I wonder if anyone can see me through this mask
My kids won’t know her, not even closeI could never be who she was, but I riseBecause she let me see the value in living each day to the most
My heart literally aches, the pain so deep inside I wake up with dreams that she is still hereThen as soon as I look into the mirror I just want to run and hide
From the pain, from the loss, from the world as it is nowI feel weary and ask myself..where do I go from here?My rest lies in him, his mercy and grace, is how
I was not ready for this, not here, not now
One year later u would think I could breathe But not a minute goes by that the loss isn’t thereI’m falling apart, just look at me!
I miss who I was with her hereTrying to sort through this mess of who I’ve becomeI give it all to my savior, for I know he is near

As a child she was the one that wiped away my tears as the pain went round and round. I just want my momma back, she’s in my heart, but when I focus on the things of this world, she is just too good for the ground.

I was not ready for this, not here, not now, How do I face tomorrow without her?
My Heavenly Father, keep me afloat as the rain pours down